Perhaps this pain explains why Jefferson offers the reader so little of her adulthood. After all, she has spent her life misinterpreted: too black for her schoolmates’ houses, too white for Black Power, a black woman among friends, an African American when conducting official discourse. At other times she adopts direct address, as if to wrest authorial control back from the overly interpretative reader. At moments of high intensity, she switches from first to third person, in order to impose ‘intellectual and emotional control’. Jefferson does not escape these experiences unscathed. So often in Jefferson’s life, her achievements were met with the smiling face of racism, what she calls the ‘ashen rewards of merit.’
She recounts making the high school cheerleading team-the first black student to do so-only to be rewarded with a sterile pleasantness from her teammates, designed to show she didn’t belong. The privilege Jefferson enjoyed is pockmarked with these events, her successes-which her parents demanded of her-undercut by the casual racism of whites, wielders of a privilege infinitely more powerful than her own. But the thrill of the first boy to get a crush on her faded when another classmate, in a clumsy attempt at a compliment, told her how honored she should be that the boy had a crush on her, since, after all, ‘they don’t allow Negroes in his parents’ building.’ Jefferson attended the prestigious University of Chicago Laboratory School-a rare example of a school integrated before the Supreme Court outlawed segregation-where she achieved academic success and a measure of superficial popularity among her white classmates. Born into Negroland’s poisoned gift of privilege, Jefferson recounts a life lived in between, a member of ‘the Third Race, poised between the masses of Negroes and all classes of Caucasians.’ The title of the Pulitzer Prize-winning cultural critic Margo Jefferson’s Negroland: A Memoir names a place, a class, and a race: Negroland is the world of the black upper class in midcentury Chicago. Negroland: A Memoir, by Margo Jefferson (New York: Pantheon Books, 2015). The Blog of the Race and Resistance Research Programme at TORCH
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